7 Months!

Hudson, I can't believe it but as of yesterday you were 7 months old! The time is flying by! It seems like yesterday we were in St. Mary's hospital wondering how we were going to make it through all this and here we are! God is good! 

So here is a little about you this month!!!

Weight as of the 25th (St. Louis dr appointment)- 10lb 9 ounces!!! Wooohoooo  the doctors said you have finally made it on the growth curve! 

Clothes size- 0-3 or some 3 months! You officially do not fit in newborn clothes anymore! I cant believe I am having to go through and get rid!   Diapers: size 1

Eating: bottle (breastmilk mixed with formula) taking between 3.5 to 4 ounces! You are eating around every 4 hours now! And then at night sometimes you go around 5!! Mommy is happy about this! 

You are such a happy baby! You love everyone and will smile at anyone! You especially love your brother!! You always look for him! You have not officially laughed completely out loud! You have a sort of laugh but its not a full giggle like we are waiting for! 

You have found your feet and you cant figure out what they are! We love to watch you look at them! You have started chewing on everything and you can put your whole fist in your mouth!!! I am wondering if you are working on a tooth!!! 

You are in physical therapy and you do not like tummy time! The therapists will start coming out once a week to work with you!!

You have been sick for the first time since we have been home! This makes me very nervous but I know its going to happen. The doctors checked you over and couldn't find anything so they are thinking a small summer cold! You never ran fever or anything just a yucky cough!!

Mommy can't believe how much progress you are making! I am so proud of you and can't wait to see what the next month holds!!!

Hope everyone has a blessed day!!! 

Lots of Love! 

Some People!!

Some people will never change!!! It doesn't matter what you do or how you treat them they will never change! Over the last several years there are a few people that I have spent too much time trying to get them to like me or accept me and I have learned its not going to happen! This is one of my major faults. I care too much what people think! The only person that should matter is God. I tell myself this all the time but then it never fails they end up making me cry or cause me to feel not good enough! I realize I don't come from a lot of money or have a lot of money. I realize I don't use proper grammar all the time. I realize I make my kids mind me and do believe in getting on to them!I realize I didn't go to college and finish the right way or wasn't part of a sorority! But all things aside I can honestly say that I feel I am a good person! I LOVE people! I Love to make people smile! I want to help you in any way I can! I can listen when you are down and most importantly I can pray for you! I won't judge you because you aren't always wearing name brand clothes or you don't have your hair fixed! I love to laugh and have a good time and don't require fancy things! I promise if you could ever get past your issues with me and give me a chance you might be pleasantly surprised! But if that doesn't happen then I know it will be ok! I guess in life you can't make everyone like you!!!

I never dreamed I would let these people get to me so bad but I have. I am human. I don't like being hurt and bottom line is we all want to feel accepted! We want to be loved and treated with respect! 

I have had many talks with God and begged him to help me not care about them or what they do but guess what I can't. It is ingrained into who I am to care about people. God truly wants me to care for them even when they don't for me! And its amazing as I sit here and write this I am thinking this is what Jesus would do! He cares even for the people who don't like him!

I am sorry I have gotten off on this soapbox today but it has been on my heart and I needed a way to "release" it!!! This is something I have been dealing with for several years and I know with God I can work through it! So bear with me and I promise I will quit whining about this! 

Update on my kiddos- jagger got sick on Friday and we had to take him to Urgent care! We were very upset because first you hate when your babies are sick and second, we can not let Hudson get sick!! Jagger was and has been running high fever and all kinds of other stuff! Doctor gave us meds and sent us home! We tried our best to keep them separated. Well yesterday Hudson started showing signs of not feeling well! Coughing, not eating, really fussy.... Instantly my heart sank! I know the day will come when he will get sick but I want it to be awhile from now! I called the hospital and doctors and they told us what to watch for. So in between the no sleep because you have to rotate tylenol  and motrin every 2 hours and cleaning  up throw up, to holding the baby all night because he started crying when I laid him down we finally made it to the doctor today and they are treating Hudson for allergies!!! Wooohooo! I can handle this! They ran every test and xray but couldn't find anything! They probably thought I am nuts but better safe than sorry! We have been through too much and I am not taking any chances! Hopefully we can all get some rest tonight!!!!!

Hope everyone had a blessed day! 

Lots of love! 

Where Do You See Yourself!

Where do you see yourself in 10 years?? This is a question I remember thinking about many times in high school and I honestly can't believe in May I have been out of high school 10 years! Over the last few months I have looked back on my life to see if its close to what I thought it would be! Some things are and some things are completely different! 

I always wanted to be married to man who grew up in small town! I wanted to be apart of a small town and have my kids grow up in that small town! Check.. that happened! Now I am not going to lie, this town was very hard for me to move into! The first year I cried all the time! I did not feel accepted and really didn't have anywhere to turn except to my mom who lived 3 hours away!! But its amazing how now 5 years later I truly feel this home! I feel this is where God wants us. At least for now!!!

I love my family but grew up with a small one. Just me, mom, dad and my grandma. I always wanted my husbands family to be big and close knit. I wanted my husband to have siblings that I would become best friends with and a mother in law who I was just as close with! Matthew does have a big family and I feel blessed to be part of it!  

Now 10 years ago I did not think that I would be married with kids this soon, but obviously God had other plans for me!! I always saw myself getting through college and having a great job, then getting married and having kids! Wrong....did go to college but not the way I thought... My fancy job= stay at home mom! I NEVER dreamed or thought I would be a stay at home mom!! I really didn't even have that desire. Now...I wouldn't have it any other way! 

I always saw myself involved in church. I never dreamed I would Love a church and church family as much as I do ours! I have really been blessed with Matthew's church! The people in the church are awesome and I always look forward to seeing everyone! I have made some very special relationships being a part of this church! I cant imagine life without it! 

Matthew and I were just talking the other day about 10 years ago, did he think he would be married, have 2 boys and one of them have to spend over 4 months in a hospital! No!!! We never think that! Most of the time what we think we want and where we see ourself is not what God has in mind!! 

So where do I see myself in 10 years??? I really have no idea! Hopefully still being the best stay at home mom I can be! Hopefully watching my boys play sports, attending school functions and teaching them to be awesome followers of Christ! I honestly have no idea what or where we will be in 10 years! Heck for all I know we may be in Heaven with Jesus! But whatever he has in store for us I know it will be awesome and I am going to enjoy every second of it even if its not what I had in mind for myself! 

Hope everyone has a blessed day!! 

Revival!

Do you ever get stuck in a rut and are not sure what is going on? I am pretty sure this is what I have been going through lately! If you know Matthew and I then you know God is number #1 in our lives and our house. This is something that we are not afraid of and we are determined to raise our boys with God being number 1. I know that many reading may not have the same beliefs that I do or not have the same faith and I totally respect that. I know some of you may not like to read on the days that I talk about my faith and love for God, but it is who I am. It is a part of me!
Ever since we have gotten home from St. Louis I have really felt something going on inside of me. I have felt a strong need for Jesus. Life has been super busy since we have been home and there have been alot of days Jesus has been pushed to the back burner. There have been times I am so tired I just want to sleep instead of spending time with him. There have been times I just don't want to spend time with him, I would rather look on Facebook, or Instagram. It hurts me to say these things but its the truth. I am human. I mess up and make bad choices! I get down and out because I have not been to church since I have been home. I miss worship. I miss seeing all the smiling faces in our church. I miss my quite time I use to have. I miss all this but I have learned it is just not possible right now. Our life is different and things have changed and because our life is changed I have to find different ways to spend time with him.
I have seen God work in our life like never before this year. He has done full blown miracles that at times blow my mind when I think about it. You would think after seeing all of this I would never put him on the backburner or feel my faith waiver. But I do...I am human and I go through different seasons of life. but with all this being said, I have asked God to do a revival in my heart! I need a revival. I need to be restrengthened. I need to be forgiven for not putting him first.

Jesus, I need you. I need to know you are with me now more than ever. There are times I am exhausted and worn out and I need you. I want to make you proud of me. Please forgive me for putting many things before you. Please help me to put all things aside and focus on you and your kingdom. Fill with the Holy Spirit and do a revival inside of me. I ask that you would do a revival not only in me but in others (friends, family, church family, all believers and non believers). I love you so much. In his name, Amen!

Hope everyone has a blessed day!

The Rest Of The Day!

So if you read my blog yesterday then you know that we were not having the best day!!! but after I got done blogging I am thinking God may have felt sorry for me because things completely turned around! Matthew and I decided it might be best for all of us to get out of the house and start over! I have learned that some days are best if you just "start over"! We decided to take our big guy to the movies! Just mommy, daddy and Jagger! Hudson got to stay with Gigi so that we could take Jagger and just focus our attention on him! We got ready in about 30 minutes and headed out the door! Jagger picked Pizza Inn for supper, but Matthew and I were not complaining.. I mean who can pass up Chocolate Chip Pizza???? Not this family! :)
Jagger wanted to watch Monisters University. It was precious! I did notice that Matthew and I laughed more than Jagger but I am pretty sure they make these movies with parents in mind! Thanks for the laugh Disney!
After the movie, we went to Walmart to grab a few things! We told Jagger he could pick out one small prize and what does he come out with??? A Duck Dynasty t-shirt and matching bandaids! We were cracking up! I am hoping we burned him out on toys but I am sure we are not that lucky!
The rest of the night consisted of finishing up our puzzle and going to bed! Oh wait and killing mosquitoes in the house! I love Southeast Missouri but these dang mosquitoes are insane! I don't think you can ever get use to them!
Hope everyone has a blessed day!

Wrong Side Of The Bed!

Today is one of those days where I am beginning to think our whole family woke up on the wrong side of the bed!!! It reminds me of the book Alexander and the terrible, horrible no good very bad day!! I loved this book when I was little and I think we are living it today! If you have not read it, you really should...its cute!  We have all been not on the same page today! We are irratible and grumpy! Not sure what happened or where we went wrong and I would love to say that we are the perfect family and this never happens but I can't! We are human! I finally had to call Aunt Claire and see if she could come rescue Jagger. Hudson and I have been hiding out in the house and Matthew is outside working on the fence!! I have tried to lay Hudson down 3 times for a nap and as soon as I lay him down his eyes pop open and the tears come on! I thought today I could move the furniture around so that I could do some major cleaning (There are dust bunnies growing like crazy under the couches!)...I got all the furniture moved to the center of the room and guess what? It is still there! The floor is clean but as soon as I got it clean it was time to fix lunch! Jagger told me he likes our new living room and wants to know if we can keep it that way! ;)
I sit here and wonder why some days are like this!?? We are normally all very happy and get along great but then every once in awhile we just have a bad day! I don't really know what to do or how to prevent them! I have been praying off and on all day that God would help us and I hope we are not the only family that goes through this! I also hope I don't sound like some whiny mom, that is complaining about her family!  but part of me is having a small pity party for myself because I hate days like this! I am just grateful they are few and far between!!
Well...Hudson is red faced and screaming so I guess I better help my little guy out!!! ;)
Hope everyone has a blessed day!

Can't Sleep!

Geeezzz...its 12:29 and I am still awake! blah! I hate when this happens because I know that very soon little Hudson is going to wake up and need to eat! Should I just stay up or try to sleep for a bit. Honestly I feel better if I just stay up! It's amazing how when your body is asleep it is harder to wake up than if you are up! or at least for me it is! We have had a good weekend and week so far! Nothing exciting going on except that Matthew is on vacation! Jagger is in heaven! He hates when his dad goes to work and we explained to him over and over that daddy has to work so we can have our house and all his toys! His response: we can sell my toys and live in a smaller house! YEAH right???? The minute I start picking up his toys all "you know what" breaks loose! It cracks me up...I don't understand kids. How can they not touch a toy in over a year but the minute you are about to give it away it becomes their favorite toy?? I don't get it! So anyways, Jagger is super pumped about getting to spend every minute with his dad! Me I am excited because my honey do list might get a few things checked off of it! As for Matthew, I am not sure he is really getting to enjoy his vacation like a true vacation! He might be happy to go back to work after this week! :)
I really can't think of much else going on in our world except for piles and piles of laundry, lots of dishes and dust collecting on the furniture that is driving me insane (on my list of to do for the week!) We had an awesome 4th of July! Probably one of the best ones we have had! Jagger loves fireworks! He got to shoot fireworks every night for a week straight! Doesn't get much better than that! I use to love fireworks growing up but for some reason the older I have gotten the less I care for them! Yes, I think they are really pretty but I guess when I know that my money is literally burning up into tiny pieces in the sky, it kind of bothers me! Oh well...it makes Jagger happy so that is all that matters! We also got to spend time with my family! My cousin came in from Georgia! I was so excited about seeing her and her girls! I miss them so much! They loved getting to see Jagger and meet Hudson for the first time!
ok I am finally getting somewhat sleepy!!!
Hope everyone had a blessed day!
Lots of Love