Monday, January 21, 2013

Be Strong!

These are the words my now 4 year old little boy was telling me when he left today. Be a strong girl momma! I will give you one guess if I was strong or not??? Not! When your baby boy is telling you bye and when I start tearing up and he says, "I love you so much momma, but try and be a strong girl" this will make any mom lose it- or at least this mom! We had such a good time this weekend! I have a love/hate relationship with these kind of times! Of course I love being around everyone, but when they leave and its over I hate it. This will be the 1st time in a month I will be here by myself and for two whole nights! Wow! Just Hudson, God, and myself! Hudson and I will read, sleep and maybe eat alot! He is only getting 10cc of milk every 3hours so maybe I will be the one doing the eating!
Jagger is changing so much! Its killing me. Everytime I see him he gets taller and has learned something new! I think I held him the whole time he was here! I hope he doesn't get tired of it. We laid in bed together, told stories and laughed! As much as it stinks to be here we are making some sweet memories together. We always hold hands now no matter what. He can't let go, and I can't let go. i just love those sweet hands! I sit here sometimes and try to imagine all this through his mind. His world got completely turned upside down and back again. How do you explain all this to a 3 year old? I mean really he has had his mommy taken away from him. I can only hope and pray this is something that he will long forget when we get home and we can make up the lost time!
Hudson has had a quiet day! His doctor is really wanting to see more progress with antibiotics. The longer he is dealing with pneumonia and the infection in his trach the more damage it does to lungs! So its time to start praying for this to go away fast! We got to hold him again night before last and it was so sweet! He loves being held by his daddy! I can't wait to hold him again!
Well time to spend time with my sweet Hudson!
Hope everyone had a blessed day!

1 comment:

  1. Michelle Rasberry IsenhourJanuary 23, 2013 at 6:53 AM

    My older two girls were 4 and 5 when I was admitted to the hospital and then had Taylor at just under 31 weeks. They spent 8 weeks with my mom in Arkansas while Taylor and I recovered and didn't see me or her at all. They don't remember it as anything other than just getting to spend a lot of time with their "Khaki." Jagger has so many amazing, loving people around him. If he remembers this time in his life I am sure he will remember it for all the good things! I worried myself sick over what the girls were thinking and what they would remember. I wish I had known how unnecessary that worry was! Listen to your little man and be strong. He is wise beyond his years!!